“You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” Job 2:10
I see this, and I live it. I have spoken to so many women (and men) who have lost their children (or are struggling with infertility) and were strong in faith before so. Then, after their world began to crumble they lost faith, or began to waiver. I am the opposite. I had little faith, I believed in God, but didn’t really show it. I didn’t pray, I didn’t live in a Godly way. Then, after my only children died, I began to know God. He sat with me when I cried, and cried with me. I could literally feel his presence at times when I felt most alone.
It was then, that I read the story of Job, and I saw this passage. So many people follow God and his teachings, then when something bad happens (lose their job, lose a loved one etc), they turn on Him. I saw this happen with my own father, and thought it only natural.
We can’t praise God for all the good he does, then condemn Him if things don’t turn out the way we want them to. I know that this is not the life I had planned for myself. I never even thought of the possibility that my children could die, but they did. I don’t think God thought to Himself one day, “Let’s give her a test, lets kill her only children after trying for 6 years and countless painful infertility treatments.”
I don’t think God thinks like that. He doesn’t plan or want anyone’s children to die, it just happens. It is tragic, it sucks, and it happens. He didn’t need another angel, or want my girls by His side right then and there, He is not selfish like that. It just happened.