I know I have been really quit on this blog for some time now. I honestly have been trying to focus on the positives and not the negatives. I have been writing more on my other blog. I think I just needed to step away from this one for awhile.
Then, this month has also been really tough on my husband and I. We have 3 important dates to us arriving withing 8 days of each other. The Twins’ birthdays, and each of their angelversaries.
Now, that is a word I do not like. ‘Angelversary.’ Is is supposed to make me feel better about my daughters dying by putting it more eloquently than, ‘the day they died?’ It isn’t a day to celebrate in my mind, which adding -versary to seems to imply.
So what does -versary mean? -versary come from the latin word vertere meaning to turn (www.dictionary.com). So, I guess -versary does work, but I’ve never really EVER used it in anything other than a good way until my daughters passed. I always celebrated on -versaries, now I have one I mourn on.
I need to come up with something better, but until I do, I guess I will continue using that awkward word. As in: Tomorrow (December 17th) is Hazel’s Angelversary. This sucks.